My request of myself, is to listen, especially to the stories that make me uncomfortable. And to let them work within me and teach me to walk with integrity. Show me the bars so I see the door, a way out, and I can fly away.
It was shortly after this I realized that maybe I should just let myself be 36. Maybe I should let myself embrace the incarnation.
Now that I better understand the feminine divine, I see that, because of her nature, she doesn’t fit easily into organized religion. She is too big and complicated for that. There are no instructions for breathing! How would you teach someone to inhale? Yet, I notice very quickly when I am becoming oxygen-deprived.
I no longer believe that God is in heaven, waiting to hear our prayer before he grants the wish. The power of the prayer or the fast is in the connection it gives us. We are to bear witness to each other. There is power in this. I am powerless over heroin. I am powerless over schizophrenia.
My eyes flicker open, barely conscious of where I am. The side of my face presses into the floor boards. There is dust and debris scattered around. I push my hands into the wood to raise my body off the ground. I look around. I see the hole over my head where the floor above … Continue reading How far down does this thing go?
We beat ourselves against the role and we bleed our pain. And while we do this, Heavenly Mother watches and waits. She whispers to us the truth that seems to only become visible through the pain, You are your own mother.
As I stood in warrior II with my arms resting by my sides, I was overcome with respect and humility toward my body. MY BODY! Which is such an amazing tool for all the things I love.
Why are you strong, brave, resilient or inspiring? Hint: It has nothing to do with what's gone wrong in your life.
I know that if I stay open, when whatever it is that is meant to come my way, finally makes its appearance, I will be open to it. I’m not sure if it will give me the testimony of Christ as I’ve pictured it or as I’ve experienced it before. I suspect it might be something completely new.
I’m trying to figure out how to honestly share my experience of my faith without alienating my LDS audience. And per usual, I’m going to go with the truth as close as I can tell it.