Tis the Damn Season

Do I need to rethink my entire life?… Or is it just the holidays? I found myself texting this to a friend who casually asked me how it was going?  Not good. Not good at all.  I mean, there are good things happening. But I think I wandered into the holidays a little off kilter.…

Read More

Meditation: The Mad-Morning Problem

I used to write a lot about meditative practice and it can look many different ways. Walking, yoga, transcendental meditation, washing the dishes, taking a bath—these are all meditative practices I have leaned on heavily to get through these past few years.  I was facing my own dark night of the soul. I like Mark…

Read More

Kauai is messing with you

This Kauai trip, it’s been interesting. I had the extra burden of writing a book while I’ve been here. That has made the trip decidedly less zen than my typical solo retreat. Also mercury is in retrograde. The Verizon tower was down on the North side of the island for a couple of days, plus…

Read More

Can we talk about kindergarten?!

R started Kindergarten at the end of August. I did not know what to expect, but here are my observations so far: Disclosure. Having to do family court about school start probably infinitely increases the stress level around it. Benefits of being a Californian. Yes! We pay higher taxes, but in California, there are no…

Read More

From the ashes -> Contentment

I just finished listening to a Tara Brach podcast about contentment. And it brought me back to this question I’ve been asking myself for several years, How do I relax and enjoy my life? It’s an enigma, right? And I think it’s compounded by social media where it feels like everyone is doing just that.…

Read More

The One Where She Starts Online Dating…Again

I’ve been dating to one extent or another since about 18 months after my ex and I separated. I naively stepped up to the plate thinking that I was basically a good wife and I should be able to find a suitable husband replacement fairly easily. People told me my most difficult job would be…

Read More

Covid sucks. Can we turn it off?

In June I found my self saying over and over again, “I just need a minute to myself.” So this last week has been some strange karmic joke or the answer to prayer or maybe just a symbol of how in touch with the universe I really am.  Because I got covid.  Everyone wants to…

Read More

How To Attend Your 20-Year High School Reunion:

(In 38 EASY steps…because that’s about how old you will be when you need this guide!) Graduate high school. Go to college and learn that you might have been too big for your britches. Let the bitches get you down. Aim sights a little lower.  Get married before you age out of the college dating…

Read More

Your Power

I’m just coming off of this month of 30 poems in 30 days. I laughed a lot. I took a closer look at some personal and hard things. I like poetry because it gives a way to share those things without oversharing (maybe??? maybe I overshare there too). At the beginning of the challenge, I…

Read More

Poem A Day: Week 4

Phewph! as R likes today. That was a lot of poems and I did lose momentum at the end because–life. But I have a couple of thoughts about completing the challenge. First, it was really fun! Not that I always loved the obligation of writing so many poems in such a short time, but it…

Read More