I have to take a second to acknowledge how hard this post has been to write. I’ve been kicking the idea around in my head for months. I’ve talked it out with several people. I’ve written multiple drafts. That’s how laden the shadow is. It’s a dragon. It’s a snag. It’s mine. And it’s yours.
On Friday I got a text from Britta with a genius idea. She proposed we meet at Mission Bay to paddle board in the bioluminescent red tide. She pointed out it would be an appropriate, socially-distanced activity and something that would be freaking amazing. I was completely in and so were three more of our … Continue reading Glowing water
This is not a blog post endorsing interior decorating or gnome jammies or impulse buys or Ingrid Michaelson fandom. Those things, all being worthy pursuits, are not the kind of beautiful I’m talking about.
Because this job (and life) can feel quite heavy at times, let me provide a little insight into how I smile and move through the week without being flattened.
My brain wants to tell me that when things go back to normal, then I can be my old self again. But my old self isn’t waiting in the wings. She’s here with me right now.
Last year I gave up on happiness and decided to start enjoying my life. That's right--forget happiness! And it’s been good. I found peace in thoughts like, I get to live such a rich life. Rich, alluding to the contrast. And when I stopped trying to run down happiness, I had more space to notice … Continue reading Forget Happiness!
We look at the pet scan which shows a shadowy outline of my body containing the darkened shapes of liver, brain, kidneys, bladder (pee pee is funny :).
On Christmas Day in the evening, I was driving R and our new puppy home from a friend’s house. R said, “I really want to stop at the store and get a new car.” “No, we have sooooo many new toys at home! Let’s just go home and play with all of our new … Continue reading It’s JANUARY!
We did it! Connection and joy. It’s possible, even at Disneyland!
Last week I found myself rolling back and forth on the ground with a bunch of giggling asian women. I was in my kundalini yoga class at the YMCA. We were doing an exercise where we put our hands out in front of us, superman-style, while lying on our stomachs, then we turned to the right until we were on our backs, then back to center/stomach, then to the left. As I rolled back and forth on the floor with these giddy women, I thought, I live such a rich life!
