Sit and smile

I’m going to pause here because THIS is mind-blowing for me. I’m not required to constantly shift and work and adjust and strain until perfection is obtained? Really? There is space in life for a moment’s pause to sit and smile?

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Stop worrying about the knitting and remember to dance

These past couple of days I have been sensing a weird transition in myself.  It’s like I’m crossing a threshold into a new phase…and it feels good.  Strangely good.  This Cheryl Strayed quote comes to my mind often: “Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can’t cry it away or eat it away or…

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We are coming for you

As a woman, I’ve spent most of my life trying to take up as little space as possible.  This was easier in some ways because I have always been on the smaller side of normal.  And the message from the world is that women should be small and quiet and agreeable.  Fortunately, at this time…

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Lessons from Cora

Each Sunday I pick Cora up and take her to church. I’ve gotten to know Cora in little ten minute segments because that’s about how long it takes to get from her house to the church.  So I’m not going to pretend that I know a lot about Cora’s life, but sometimes you don’t need…

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Fear, get out of the driver’s seat!

Tonight I find myself on the couch.  It’s late.  I should be sleeping but my brain won’t be quiet.  I have learned that this is a signal I’ve been slacking on my mental hygiene.  By that, I mean that I haven’t been doing all of the practices I usually do to keep my mind uncluttered. …

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On being seen

I’ve always been on the short side of normal height.  I never had a growth spurt where I was the tall kid for a few months.  As a result, I’ve always seen myself as small.  I used to feel self conscious about the size of my feet and hands.  I got my mother’s long fingers…

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Abyss

I saw my marriage as something that I could hold together.  I believed if I could do enough things and work hard enough, I could create a happy marriage single handedly.  When I decided to end it, a huge part of my identity was taken from me.  In some ways this was extremely liberating.  I…

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