Sleepy Saturday is a good way to describe the last day in Hawaii. We sleep in later than usual after our late night of dancing. We pick up some interesting donuts from a Holy Donuts in Kona—our favorite was the lilikoi (passionfruit) meringue. We relax on the seawall watching swimmers follow the buoy-marked path that … Continue reading Day Six: Intention for the Dirty Muddy Pig Year
I am up with the sun at 7am. Cass and I have planned to snorkel the Captain Cook Monument today. With optimism, we attach a couple of other potential plans on the back end of that so we rush around and load all the needed equipment, provisions and clothing into a laundry basket to haul … Continue reading Day Five: Swimming in that soul river
In Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Life and Love from Dear Sugar there is a letter from a man who signs himself as “Beast with a Limp.” He writes that he has been disfigured by a blood disorder that he has been dealing with since childhood. He writes that there is no way to remedy … Continue reading “Walk without a stick into the darkest woods.”
This was a text I got from my insightful and decidedly heterosexual sister a few weeks ago. It made me laugh! I’ve had the same thought and I’ve held it with some curiosity. This is not a coming out post! Still firmly hetero (for any available intensely awesome male partners anyone might know). Robin Kahn, … Continue reading I keep identifying with lesbians
These past couple of days I have been sensing a weird transition in myself. It’s like I’m crossing a threshold into a new phase…and it feels good. Strangely good. This Cheryl Strayed quote comes to my mind often: “Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can't cry it away or eat it away or … Continue reading Stop worrying about the knitting and remember to dance
I have wanted to write more about my wrestle with my faith, but it feels very vulnerable. I am going to try to do that today and I hope, as readers, you will remember my post about the wound that is still healing. I am in the middle of healing this wound, maybe even at … Continue reading Removing cages
R and I had an incredibly full and beautiful weekend together. We spent a pristine Saturday morning at the beach. The babies played while the adults took turns surfing. The conditions were perfect. Small, friendly waves. Bright sun. Pleasantly warm, but not hot. R palled around with his equally blond comrade, playing in the sand, … Continue reading See! That tiny light is already glowing.
I am up at 6:15 today to get the taxi at 6:45 to the Clinical Center. I arrive at the hospital before much is going on there. First stop is phlebotomy. I am taken back immediately into one of the phlebotomist cubicles. She informs me that they only need a urine sample. I don’t know … Continue reading Day 3: But then I decide—why not talk to Santa?!?
PREFACE: This week I’ve decided to chronicle my NIH visit in detail. My friends and family have been observing my NIH pilgrimages from a distance for years and are interested to know what it’s like. I realize this may not be of interest to everyone and my entries will resume their regular flavor (whatever that … Continue reading Day 1: Make a mess beautiful
I am a psychiatric PA. A lot of people get confused by that title. I am a physician assistant specialized in psychiatry. I do the same job as a psychiatrist for much less money, and I’d like to think with a little more style! I diagnose and treat mental illness, primarily with medication. I have … Continue reading It’s all delusional anyway