That I Would Be Free

Essays on identity, transition and quietly building a life that fits.

  • Wandering Thoughts on Mother’s Day

    We beat ourselves against the role and we bleed our pain. And while we do this, Heavenly Mother watches and waits. She whispers to us the truth that seems to only become visible through the pain, You are your own mother. Read More

  • Burn the Box! A Diet Coke Story

    Food programs and thought work can strip away the bullshit reasons we give ourselves for eating and drinking the things we do. So do the food programs, do the thought work but let it bring you to consciousness. See the box, feel the box… then burn it! Read More

  • Put your arms down!

    As I stood in warrior II with my arms resting by my sides, I was overcome with respect and humility toward my body. MY BODY! Which is such an amazing tool for all the things I love. Read More

  • May Day and MAYDAY!

    I find that life keeps teaching me about these paradoxes—two things that shouldn’t go together but certainly do. Two things that should contradict each other, but both are true. It’s as if life keeps saying to me Yes, AND…. Read More

  • I am not strong because…

    Why are you strong, brave, resilient or inspiring? Hint: It has nothing to do with what’s gone wrong in your life. Read More

  • Hi, I’m Michelle and I Have a Life Coach

    If you are like me, this is what you might expect to get out of life coaching. Read More

  • New wine must go in new bottles

    I know that if I stay open, when whatever it is that is meant to come my way, finally makes its appearance, I will be open to it. I’m not sure if it will give me the testimony of Christ as I’ve pictured it or as I’ve experienced it before. I suspect it might be… Read More

  • Respect for the jazz organ, little lies and other music lessons

    This made me think of the music my parents’ passed on to me. It’s music I can still get into all these years later. Here are the top five bands I appreciate because of my parents! Read More

  • the truth as close as I can tell it

    I’m trying to figure out how to honestly share my experience of my faith without alienating my LDS audience. And per usual, I’m going to go with the truth as close as I can tell it. Read More

  • Write the recipe for bliss

    Identify those ingredients that make it bliss and put them together in your current circumstance. Put your butt in the sand. Fry bacon on the beach miles away civilization. Stare into the starry sky. Give your soul what it craves. Read More