Hello, Silent One. Silence for weeks and for months, Imagined with a crevasse of compassion. And now that I have beheld Your unyielding form, I understand. You, at your core, are not uncaring, But your silence is. In my first life, If I learned nothing else, It is that silence has no room for Heat…
These past couple of days I have been sensing a weird transition in myself. It’s like I’m crossing a threshold into a new phase…and it feels good. Strangely good. This Cheryl Strayed quote comes to my mind often: “Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can’t cry it away or eat it away or…
I have wanted to write more about my wrestle with my faith, but it feels very vulnerable. I am going to try to do that today and I hope, as readers, you will remember my post about the wound that is still healing. I am in the middle of healing this wound, maybe even at…
I find myself joking with my close friends that it’s a lot of work to be friends with me right now. It’s because I have no capacity for the superficial. I don’t have the energy for it. This means I have a lot more awkward conversations. I ask deep, personal questions. I talk about…
Because experience seems to be the best teacher, let me start there. I’ve written a lot about listening to the still, small voice or finding the knowing. I’ve considered how to find that voice and I’ve been intentionally experimenting with it this past couple of months. My mind has been pretty hectic this week. My…
In March I set a goal to journal daily for 30 days. It was just for me. I had zero intention of sharing the contents of my journal with posterity. I think I just wanted to hear the sound of my own voice. I wanted to better understand myself. I decided to do it first…
I was so inspired by Cup of Jo’s post about rules for raising teenage girls that I thought I might consider my own personal lessons in parenting. So here goes! I have a sweet, smart, sassy, sometimes terrible almost-three-year-old boy, hereafter referred to as “R.” And please let me know about your experience—God knows I…
I just finished a short relationship with someone. It was never meant to be serious but it was more substantial than anything I’ve had since I separated from my someday-ex 20 months ago. This micro relationship was like an accelerated course. Each week, I felt I was uncovering some truth about myself, not because this…
I’m thinking about times and seasons today. These natural transitions of seasons are like embedded mileposts marking my progress through time. I am home sick in bed today with some terrible bronchitis/walking pneumonia concoction. It’s not very often I have a day to lie in bed and the company of my pillows, the sunshine and…